In the past few days and especially today, I have been procrastinating turning to God. Instead, I desperately try to substitute the Lord with earthly comforts (wealth, pleasure, honor, power). It doesn’t work of course, no matter how much I wish that it would. I have many years of experience with addiction so I know what it feels like. The scary thing is that I feel the addiction to these earthly comforts coming on.
Being addicted is to not be able to say no even though you want to. It’s the stripping away of freedom, the binding of the will in chains.
I am terrified of addiction. So I try to turn to my Lord and my husband to help me avoid it at all costs.